XLV
Confession
“A triumph!”-NY Post
Once if only alone on the bus ozone or softly a woman
And my arms on her polished railing
Slipped as the governor on the edge of a paper heart a demon.
All I remember is the pale edge of her cross ball-point pen.
She was late and ate lard. So much for the golden medal against a new breast
The flat moon sitting on the train
At last solemn the log flume the log jam
Or if and in Paris I slept in the rustling leaves
Outside of sick-houses. I was singing under pig doors
The cats passing furtively
The ghost of an ear, or, you wrote me well, a post-card in which you’d burned yourself with hot cheeses. The goat
That followed us reluctantly to church
Was suddenly an intimate in the minister’s cabinet. In the library
She lifted up her skirts the moon passing before the sun midday we toasted it with a bottle of claret
Or did you were you the letter-carrier? I’m sorry, ailing singing your postage so expensive but my letters won’t arrive
Only my radiant heat-lamp gets to you. Spring
For you. Clear and joyous so explains the fanfare the trumpets
In the morning jamming your toast or are you is you Lancelot
Your one simple letter on the subject a treatise on bananas a letter they sell oddly at market
And I smack my lips pa-pa. All you are is some lucky nights
Where an infant becomes an auto-mechanic or a wheat hombre. A world
Where your family has rosy cheeks & rosies their cheeks
And she her ship has already long ago come into port. Days ago.
A long time ago. The cashier old moaner in a cave or salt mine or a secret
Poor angel sea-shell she is singing your letter cries out
“Who has never broken their nose on this-here bus, a curtain
And for you always a long line at the supermarket with several sorry quail’s eggs in safari pants
Find themselves trafficking in isn’t it a Coney Island underwater train
That’s harder than sitting through having to meet your girl’s entire family for the first time on the balcony at church
And if only that was like a trip to the dentist.
Already if the soused dancers fall on me or unlock my refridge with a panicked sea-plane
Coon show magicians open pigs for barbiturates
Whose still-beating hearts soak all monies in the East
Before the circus tent falls in on its own cracked spine or rural boat shoes brought to tea
Jusqu’à ce que l’Oubli les jette dans sa hotte
As a gift to the poor for eternity!”
I have often evoked a moon a jay bird sitting in a lawn chair comfortable
As if Lancelot was any match for tennis pros. But looky here, guerrilla warrior,
Tennis pros come with all my fer instances or wheat men push the railroad engine into church and past the pews
To the confessional. All I’m asking for is cover fire. Hide me Rick, you must hide me.